It's a been a strange old week really. Good things and not so good things. Such is life.
On the up side, this week has seen us take delivery of our new dining table (Monday), our new sofabed (Tuesday) and our new dining chairs (Wednesday). I have no idea why the table and chairs came separately and nor did the delivery driver who asked us if we'd ordered them at separate times and who rolled his eyes when we told him they were all ordered together!
The dining 'suite' looks lovely and I'm really happy with it but my current love is the sofabed which I haven't even opened up to see how it works because I just love it as a sofa. It's green, textured and really comfy to sit on. It has pride of place in what I like to call 'the family room' and which used to be a granny flat. There is not much else in there at present but I intend to make it a bright, colourful comfy room where the grandchildren can play when they come and a room that I can go to when hubby is watching the football or when I want so space. The only issue at the moment is that it does get chilly in there despite the radiator and lined curtains so I envisage getting a tv and some sort of music system in there, a throw or two and I will be very happy in there.
In fact, there is also a dolls house and a toy box in there and I'm not sure whether they will stay there or not. The toy box is actually a black trunk that apparently used to belong to my Grandad and who used it on his many and various travels. I remember it being in my Nan's sitting room and it being full of blankets and the odd bag of sugar that was in short supply at the time. Nan was used to rationing and so on throughout the war years so any mention of a shortage of anything would see her rush out and get as much of the item as she could just in case.
Our dining table and chairs have seen hubby and I have a couple of nice lunches together. It's amazing how nice it is to sit at a table and eat. We have just got used to eating off of a tray on our laps. I also sat and wrote my Christmas cards at the table the other evening whilst listening to Christmas songs via Spotify on our fabulous Tivo box.
The more rubbish side of the week has seen me struggling with a headache from hell for two days after drinking two glasses of red wine and eating cheese. I really very seldom drink wine these days and I've never been a lover of red wine so I'm not sure what possessed me. It was there and I fancied a drink so I drank it. I should have had a cup of tea instead to be honest.
The headache/migraine was so persistent that I ended up at the local pharmacy asking for strong over the counter painkillers. They suggested Panadol which seemed to do the trick and stopped the intensity of the pain but even now, Friday evening and 3 days later, I am still not feeling 100%.
I have been feeling lethargic and a bit out of sorts for a few weeks. I don't feel ill but I do feel flat. Now, I have stopped taking the antidepressants that I was on...I weaned myself off of them very slowly...so my lethargy could be to do with that maybe but I don't feel depressed, just flat.
I'm tired a lot of the time...actually, not tired, just weary.. and everything feels like a bit of an effort but I also think that maybe it's the time of year - lots of sad memories, dreary weather and dull days. I know that I am a really fortunate person and think, therefore, that I should be happy all the time. I'm not unhappy but I feel that I ought to be exuding energy that I just don't have. Now, I'm not sure that I have ever been that energetic. I have always needed something to focus on to get me motivated and I do think that I have often felt like this so I'm sure it will pass.
I am so very grateful for my life, for my health and for my family that I feel that I should be bouncing full of energy all of the time and I fret when I'm not, but maybe it's just me.
So that was not the promised more upbeat blog entry was it?! Sorry about that folks. It's just how it is. When I type these entries I type from the heart and I really just type how I feel. I think that there has been such a lot of exciting stuff happening to me that, at some point, there comes a realization that exciting things can't just keep on happening. Quiet time, down time is good. It allows me to think more about things (not always good!) and to pace myself instead of crashing on through each day trying to organize everyone and everything.
Life is amazing and I never want to take a day of it for granted. I feel like I should be loving life every minute of every day but I just don't have the energy sometimes...and, also, I am 54 so maybe my energy supplies are running a little low and my batteries take longer to recharge. I don't think about my age, or I try not to, but it must have an effect don't you think? I probably need to focus more on what I'm putting into my body and should also look after it better, listen to it when it shouts at me and treat it with the love it deserves. It has done pretty well so far with little maintenance from me so maybe now is the time for me to pay back some of its loyalty.
Have a great weekend everyone. Soon be Christmas!
Oh, and another bit of good news....we received these today! We completed a survey and our name went in to a draw and we won. Hurrah!
Until next time,
xxxxx
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