Hi everyone,
It's been a while since I have blogged so I hope that this finds you well and looking forward to the spring which officially started today apparently. This weekend the clocks go forward too which is always exciting.
This post is a bit personal but, hey, what's new?! As a 56 year old I have had to come to terms with the fact that my body is no longer capable of recovering quickly from any knocks it takes and it is also unable to react quite as quickly as it used to. I'm finding kneeling down quite difficult...well the getting up bit really . I have arthritis in my fingers and when it's cold my fingers and toes go white and numb and take a while to recover. Add to this the joys of the menopause and, all in all, things ain't what they used to be.
As a consequence of these ailments I decided to try HRT which was prescribed to me by my GP whom told me that my blood pressure what 'beautiful' which was brilliant because the doctors is always a place that I get anxious. Anyway, meds collected, I was eager to start what I hoped would be a positive experience and that I would generally start to feel better. I took the small white tablet and that was it. I had a look at the list of possible side effects which was very long but nothing stood out as being an issue. That was on Saturday. I took a tablet every day for 4 days and as each day went by I felt worse and worse. By the Tuesday I was worse than a bear with a sore head, had a horrible time with my daughter and her children - by which I mean I was cantankerous and rude and uncommunicative, stroppy, sulky and miserable - and I knew that something was wrong.
A look online didn't really come up with any proof that the medication could have such a dramatic effect so quickly but by the Wednesday morning I knew something had to change. I rang my doctor and told him how I was feeling - dead inside, emotionless, beyond lethargic - and he told me to stop taking the pills straight away which I did. All I could do was wait for the medicine to clear my system. I spent the rest of what was a glorious sunny day in bed feeling beyond fed up and miserable.
Well, today is Monday, I have had 6 days without the medication and I feel back to normal. I'm always a 'glass half empty rather than a glass half full' kind of gal but I am so relieved to feel like me again. I have made my apologies to the people that I was unreasonable with. I am so shocked at my attitude. So shocked that I felt it was reasonable to be a grumpy old bag. I'm equally shocked that the HRT had such an immediate effect on me.
Over the weekend I decided to try the alternative route and ordered some black cohosh, evening primrose oil capsules and some maca and I will see how things go. I am happy to try this approach even though I know that there is little proof that natural supplements work with any regularity. My order arrived today and I have started on my new regime. Time will tell.
Today has been a positive day. Lots of little things have been sorted out...the things that you keep putting off because they aren't really important but they niggle away at you anyway! We have made a few decisions about the house, my beach hut has a new floor, I'm drinking lots of water and it's stopped raining! Happy days.
Take care and stay safe.
xxxxx
