Don't Worry. Be Happy!

Hi everyone.

Another week passes me by and I wonder what on earth I have achieved in those 7 days. I'm sure it's the same for most of us...we get up each day, have a list of things to do, we are lucky if we achieve half of what we intended, other stuff happens to throw us off track, we get to the end of the day and fall into bed feeling irritated to have not achieved all that we planned and then we get up the next day and start all over again. It's sometimes so hard to stay focussed and positive and not beat ourselves up when what we should really be doing is telling ourselves that we have done a great job...we have lived another day, we have had more experiences, we have smiled and laughed and probably cried and worried, but we have lived another day and that is nothing but positive. What we get out of each day is really up to us.

I have to own up to this last week of mine being not the best. Don't get me wrong, I have done a lot. I have seen friends and family, had cuddles with babies and walked my dogs. The sun has had it's hat on and we experienced a glorious weekend of sunshine. We had barbecue dinners three days in a row. Good times.

However, as a Mum and a Nanny, it's really hard to not be affected when any of your loved ones are having a very difficult time and you feel unable to offer any solution.

I have found this last week - more than any time over the last 4 months - very difficult as we, as a family, have tried to rally round and support a family that we all love very much. As usual, it is so very hard to keep this kind of thing impersonal but this is my blog and it's about my life. My life is affected by the issues and struggles that affect anyone that I love and care about.

Seeing someone who is a part of you have such a hard time through no fault of their own is heartbreaking. As a Mum all you want to do is make it better. As a Nanny you just want the pain and the sickness to stop. I can do neither of those things. All I, or any of us can do, is be there when we are needed, offer support and love and try to keep things in perspective. Not easy when you have a mind like mine and have had the experiences that I have had.

However, bad days are usually followed by less bad, or even better, days and that has been the case so far. Things seem a little more positive all round which is marvellous.

Apologies, if required, for the vagueness of this post. After being much too personal in the past I have tried to keep things impersonal as far as I can. I know this will make for fairly dull reading but that's how it is for this post at least!

A xxxx